A Miracle Spark.

Hello world. The following was written 4/29/2015.

The following conversation speaks of the shame and guilt we are taught to believe in when things happen to us.

A brother shares, “Today I learned the difference between a pedophile and a child molester. Acceptance of pedophiles can help them to never act on their ideas so never become molesters. Having to hide and be ashamed is not helpful.

I would never touch a child but I have had little girls show up in my sexual fantasies before. I was the little girl. Hahahahaha I am for a world where telling the truth is acceptable.”

My response, “Thank you for sharing where you are brother. There is no need for shame, guilt or fear. I understand what it is you share. There is something that happens when one is touched at a young age an little to no pain is felt. I myself have experienced this. I recognized I enjoyed what I was experiencing in the moment. I was not ashamed or afraid until it was taught to me to be so.

I had no understanding what was done was bad, wrong, sinful or that I “should” feel shame, guilt, and fear until it was taught to me. I was also taught to blame someone else and to see myself as a victim when I was told I was ruined, worthless, damaged and much much more.

In those moments the judgments and opinions were being handed to me I was choosing to believe what was being said. I made the choice and decision to believe in it. In doing so it caused me many years of untold pain and suffering.