Everything you have experienced has been for your benefit.

Hello world. The following was written 11/20/2016.

Good evening Folks. Thank you for sharing where you are at on your journeys. The very fact that you are seeing what you are doing and have done in the past says quite a lot about where you are now. In my own experiences I have had to look within at everything I am thinking, feeling, saying, doing, and choosing to believe in. I have had to really look within at my own intentions regarding the situations and the people involved. Am I doing what I am doing to get something? If I am, what is it I am trying to get from this? I begin by stopping myself from making excuses as to why I should not question these things. Then I start asking myself and God questions.

I look within at what it is I am choosing to believe about myself, the situation, and the others involved. Am I seeking out there in another for who I am? Am I placing them on a pedestal? Am I superimposing some imaginary picture over them and myself to make them better in some way? I honestly and authentically look within my own heart and mind at every aspect of the situation. At all the little details that are coming up and I question every single one of them. I leave no stone un-turned in my search of the Truth of what it is I am doing in this moment, even if it is unconsciously. I have learned to question EVERYTHING!

There is another aspect here that you may not fully be aware of or understand is happening while these things are in play. I have found this item to be true in my own life and relationship with my Husband. Sometimes, when we find ourselves in a relationship, and I am not talking about romance here, the one we have connected with will lead us where we would not have otherwise gone on our own.

An example of this would be my relationship with my Husband and ACIM. I would have never looked at, let alone read, ACIM if it had not been for my Husband choosing to do so first. I was and had been a solitary practitioner of Wicca, Druidism, and Shamanism from the age of 14 by that time in my life. I hated God and blamed Him for all I had experienced in my life. All the rapes, molestation, beatings, exorcisms, canings, mental and emotional abuses and my pain and suffering at the hands of others…

My relationship and marriage were on the verge of collapse when my Husband decided to try the course. Up until then he had only experienced Scientology as a religion through his parents. It…