Faith vs Fear…

Hello world. The following was written 6/2/2015.

My ego wants me fearful. It wants me to worry if I can pay the bills. It wants me to worry about what others think of me. It wants me to curl up in a ball and cry in terror that the world is out to get me. My ego wants me to believe that I am a victim of the world I see. That I am bad, wrong, misguided, crazy, and the list goes on and on.

When fear takes hold often we are not aware of it. We are in a reactive state in those moments. We are judging subconsciously. Consider for a moment the thoughts racing through your mind in those moments. What are they? Where did they come from? Why are you believing this? When these things come up I ask myself what is it I am placing my faith and belief into.

When I started the Course in Miracles in 2013 I asked myself this, what am I placing my faith and belief into? What gives me faith to believe there is a God, Jesus, or Holy Spirit? Where does my belief and faith really come from? When I really looked within my heart and mind to answer these questions a dawning realization came to me. Nothing I have ever read, seen, or heard someone say has given me faith or belief in God. Not a single one. Then what is it that gives me this faith?

The more I look the more I see it is my experiences throughout my life that have given me this faith and belief there is a God. I did not find it in the concepts put forth in a book. I did not find it in the opinions given by others. I did not find it in a movie. I found it walking down a…