How have these things been of benefit to me?

Hello world. The following was written 8/05/2018.

As I reread my posts from last night I am struck by something interesting. I am finding words within my writings I have absolutely no freaking idea what the hell they mean. Like the word adjunct. I had no idea what the heck it meant until I looked it up a few moments ago. I get it! I am a Channel for Holy Spirit when He decides to step in and take the reigns.

Still, do you have to use words I have never seen before? I get this silly foolish feeling inside about this. It is a feeling of, I wrote this but I have no idea what it means or where it even came from. I must be dumb to not understand my own writings. OMG!!! Why must I constantly look up the meaning of this stuff? Can you not use words I know and understand already? Yeah, this girl is loosing it. I am spending my morning looking up definitions, blah!

My path crossed with someone recently who asked me a question which has been playing in the back of my mind ever since. They asked me, “How is everything I have gone through or will go through for my benefit? How can losing my handbag been of benefit?” My answer to the latter was, if you had not misplaced your purse you never would have met my Husband and I. As for the first question, how do I explain an understanding? A change in perception and perspective. A letting go of a belief in something so deeply rooted you allowed yourself to believe IT IS what defines you. It is who and what you are.