How it is my ego experiences and perceives.

Hello world. The following was written 2/2/2017.

For the last few days I have been finding myself waking up very early in the AM. Like around 5–6 AM. Upon waking I am hit with nausea that has me running to the bathroom to dry heave. I crawl back into bed or onto the couch and pass out for another hour or two just to wake up and repeat the cycle once more. The third time I wake the nausea is generally subsided and is now at my periphery and no longer front and center.

This morning I found myself examining what I have been experiencing. I have been looking at my thoughts, emotions, and general perceptions as I went through these things this morning.

What was standing out to me were my judgments that this was not pleasant. That what I was experiencing needed to stop and that I did not want to experience these things. Then I had a thought come in. What if I am pregnant? Would I then hold this same view of this experience? What would change in my purview?

What dawned on me was that if I was pregnant I could then understand and accept this feeling of nausea without judging it to be something unwanted. My entire perspective would change from one of an unwanted experience to an acceptable side effect of an experience that is now anticipated and not feared as some unknown illness. In being given a reason for something happening I am now able to accept it.

Now that is an eye opener to how it is my ego experiences and perceives. That whatever is…