I am addicted to listening and believing everyone around me.

Hello world. the following was written 4/20/2015.

I am an ADDICT! I really want to believe, listen to and follow the dictates of others and believe them when they tell me I am doing something wrong or that I am a horrible Being that is destroying their lives. I am addicted to listening to and believing everyone around me and what they say is true so defines me. Holy Spirit is telling me the more I listen to others the more I will suffer. Until I no longer can stand the pain and end it with a razor to my wrists, a rope around my neck, jumping from a cliff or ramming my car into an overpass pillar on the freeway. All options, are choices, if I continue to believe whatever I am being told is true and choose to listen to it all. Do I want to give up on me by listening to what is being said or go within and ask Holy Spirit to guide me instead. Only Holy Spirit knows the Truth and only He can guide me. My path is my own and the path they choose is theirs. I do not need to follow the lost anymore. Their way is not for me.

Blessings on your journeys my brothers. Hugs and love. You are loved. I love you.