I started asking where they came from.

Hello world. The following was written 2/18/2017.

My brother shares, “There’s this thing I do at night where I ask myself 1000 unanswerable questions and let them ricochet around my brain until the anxiety turns to madness. My comfort zone. Then I pass out until my internal clock wakes me up at 5 am. A beautiful sunrise always makes it better. Crappy weather, not so much.”

My response, “I used to do something similar until I was guided to actually start looking at those thoughts or questions and start to question THEM! I started asking where they came from, why they were there, what their purpose was, and how the hell are they of benefit to me? I also asked if they were true, what was the Truth, and why was I taught to think and believe as I was. Needless to say when I started asking some questions in my own head of Holy Spirit I actually started getting answers too.

All of it is connected to what I was taught as a child to think, say, do and believe in as being real and true. All of it was a form of brainwashing using controlled coercions and manipulations that EVERYONE goes through. Most of the stuff being brought to my attention were the judgments and labels handed to me and held by me as being true as defining myself and this world as well as everyone in it. When I started questioning my own thoughts I found most, if not all of them were judgments taught to me.

That shit caused so much pain and suffering within me and I never realized I was doing it all to myself…