In everything I am making all choices and decisions to experience what I am.

Hello world. The following was written 6/17/2017.

The following occurred a year ago. This is the nightmare my Husband and I were dealing with in our lives, when a family member decided to negate a written contract we had with them, as if it did not exist. The turmoil it created within us both and how we tend to ignore and push things away, when we feel another needs our strength.

I am looking at some things I am and have been experiencing of late in a very deep way. I am looking within at my thoughts and feelings and some judgments I seem to be holding as well.

My Husband and I just got home from looking at a couple of RV/Motor Homes. On our way home we started talking about the situation with his aunt and this house we were supposed to be buying from her. I found myself verbalizing how I was feeling about her and the situation she created with her greed and avarice. Until I opened my mouth and spoke I did not realize how much it had been eating at me within. These underlining thoughts and feelings would come up. Thoughts and feelings such as hoping this house burns down and she goes to jail for tax fraud and so many other crooked things she does.

I found myself saying to my husband, if we have anymore kids they will never meet her. She will never have anything to ever do with them. I am seriously hoping her son never has any children while she is alive. She has shown just how controlling and manipulating…