Living in a nightmare with no idea as to how to get out of it.

Hello world. The following was written 7/12/2015.

I was looking at some of the things I was experiencing and feeling regarding the situation we found ourselves in with our home. How lost and angry I felt at the situation we found ourselves in. The nightmares we go through on our journeys that have us tied in knots confused at all we experience.

“Good morning world. Yesterday I woke up feeling sick to my stomach. I was able to eat some toast before heading out to spend the day with my family. We were celebrating my Mother and my Aunt’s birthdays. On the drive out with the family I found myself hanging out of the car tossing my cookies. We had to stop five times for me to unleash my stomach on the road. I haven’t gotten car sick like that in years.

This morning I woke up at 6 AM. I found myself worshiping that porcelain God until about 7:30 AM. I finally fell back asleep, until around 10 AM. Even now my stomach is trying to protest the toast I have eaten. Add to this the drama unfolding in our personal lives and I ask myself is it any wonder I am feeling so sick inside.

We have been living in a nightmare with no idea as to how to get out of it. Our “lender” lost our contract for the purchase of this house within months of us signing the contract then installing solar panels, appliances and doing some fixing up of the place. In their minds there is now NO contract. In their minds this makes us a renter. Without a contract we don’t…