Out of the chaos comes understanding.

Hello world. The following was written 09/29/2014.

I hear the word Salvation and it means nothing to me. It has no value in my mind. It’s meaning has been thinned to a veils thinness. It’s meaning is hazy with no clear meaning other then what one puts to it. Divine purpose has more meaning to me. It says to me, I have purpose. There is a reason for my existence. My purpose, to heal myself and reach my Father with my brothers beside me.

Not feeling the love this morning. Feeling very irritable and short tempered. I snapped at my cat to get the hell out of my way and from under my feet or I wasn’t going to care if I kicked him. Not sure what is going on. I feel tired and achy all over. I keep clenching my teeth too. Just feeling off center this morning. Not a happy Panda this morning at all. Wow I keep crying too. No reason for it. Dry eyed one second a waterfall the next. What the hell is happening to me? My mind is completely blank other then noticing what I am feeling physically. Holy Spirit, why am I bawling my eyes out here?

Had something very interesting happen last night. My large crystal necklace fell and broke in half. I haven’t had much of a reaction to it myself. Yet my Husband was very upset about it. It just feels right to me that it broke at this time. Such a sad thing though. It was very beautiful. It still is. It is just in two pieces now. It shall serve a new purpose now. It is the same necklace as is showing in my photo. Its smaller now.