The Ties that Bind us.

Hello world. The following was written 12/22/2016.

For the last month I have been looking within at the ties that bound me. My beliefs that I was obligated to financially support my mother and extended family and accept their judgments and dictates. That if my Husband and I did not do whatever they wanted, when they wanted, as they wanted for free we were being ungrateful and disrespectful. If we were choosing to think and believe differently than they were, we are now devil worshipers.

My family walked away from my Husband and I. Yet they demand we come to them with an apology if we want them in our lives. As I sit here looking at that I recognize what they want is to be the victim. They are the ones who tried to manipulate and divide us with their judgments and opinions. The us, being my Husband Alex and I. Our family’s unwillingness to accept our chosen mate has caused this rift. Because we made a decision to choose each other we are now unworthy. Unworthy to be in their presence. Unworthy of their love, affections and their precious attention.

Their inability to accept us unconditionally set the stage for us learning how to accept ourselves. As I am looking within at all of this I notice an absence of emotional attachment. No pain or suffering within. I feel at peace. I feel grateful for the huge weight of the burden of their constant judgments, dictates, manipulations to divide and to get me pick them over my Husband is at an end. I no longer feel as if I am holding a viper to my breast waiting for the right moment…