Words said in anger…

Hello world. The following is from 10/25/2015.

Words said in anger cannot be unsaid. In deep contemplation they may only be reviewed and considered for validity. The anguish they bring forth is just the surface of a deeper belief waiting to be uncovered. That you are the cause of the suffering they are enduring. That you are holding them back. Interfering constantly with whatever it is they think they want to do. If you do not agree with, follow along and do what they want you are the problem.

I have been wearing this hurt like a cloak about me all night. Playing over and over again in my mind those words said in anger. All because I pointed out there were bowls in the cupboard… I was interfering with your choice of what to eat from. Was I interfering? Apparently I was… All unknowingly. In trying to be helpful I was instead jabbing a hot poker at an angry monster. You demanded I no longer talk to you, come near you, or touch you. That you were sick of me interfering with your choice in what you want to do before storming out of the house.

Going within and looking at these things said in anger to me I see how deeply these words hurt me. When in everything I have done my best to accept and allow them to be as they are and to express how they feel. I am told I am not allowed and I will not be accepted. I will be judged and found lacking. These lessons are harder and harder to bare. The clearing of the belief that I am responsible for how another being feels and responds to any given situation. Even when that being is the love…