Words said in anger are more self-directed then outwardly projected.

Hello world. The following was written 10/25/2015.

I am looking at the hurt felt when those you love and care about are lashing out from their own pain and suffering being experienced. How tempers flair and things get said that are not meant. How in our pain we push away those who would comfort us. How we do these things in the moment causing pain and suffering unknowingly. When this happens to us we have to step back and ask ourselves if what has been said to us is the Truth. When we stop and ask, we find it is not. It was just their pain speaking out at the time.

Words said in anger cannot be unsaid. In deep contemplation they may only be reviewed and considered for validity. The anguish they bring forth is just the surface of a deeper belief waiting to be uncovered. That you are the cause of the suffering they are enduring. That you are holding them back. Interfering constantly with whatever it is they think they want to do. If you do not agree with and follow along and do what they want you are the problem.

I have been wearing this hurt like a cloak about me all night. Playing over and over again in my mind those words said in anger. I was interfering with your choice of what to eat from. Was I interfering? Apparently I was, all unknowingly. In trying to be helpful I was instead jabbing a hot poker at an angry monster. You demanded I no longer talk to you, come near you, or touch you. That you were sick of me interfering with your choice in…